City Lights        written by Lisa Gallant Seal

 City lights are pretty watching them through this window 

I don't like the city much, except for the people

who walk around the streets and such

they're the ones who teach me, as long as I want to hear.

 Do you know your eyes are beautiful as I'm watching them through My eyes

and that I can see anything that I want to see

and when you close them and feel a tear behind them,

I hope you know that you can come to Me

 Everything is easy, if that's the way you want it

and things can be really hard too

whatever you are feeling, take and you feel it

cause the feeling will be over real soon, making room for more feelings

 Once I saw a mother somewhere caressing her sweet baby

something deep inside got touched, I knew something that I missed

I yearned for soft arms around me, holding me, caressing me, 

telling me whatever I do, it's gonna be alright

 Once I saw the sunrise, I pretended I was an Indian, I took dirt, and I smelled it

I was sitting on wet dew. I felt a Power deep within me,

one I wanted to capture, and I looked toward the Son and then I knew

 Everything is easy, if that's the way you want it

and things can be really hard too

whatever you are feeling, take and you feel it

cause the feeling will be over real soon, making room for more feelings

 Once I saw the sunrise, I pretended I was an Indian, ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

 

 

The song, City Lights is a tune I wrote several years ago and lately has been impacting me with bittersweet revelation.

I ask, “why now Lord? Why have you brought this song back into my life?” 

Admittedly there have been a lot of changes for me over the last couple of years; drastic changes, creating waves of emotion. But with the resurrection of this song, I can clearly see that the Lord has been ministering to me in the madness, teaching me through His written Word and helping me understand my identity as His daughter. 

The song says I don't have to be led by those waves' of emotions, He says, “just feel them”, ultimately feelings will go away, and more will come. He understands everything. 

At that time in my life, I knew there was a God, but I did not understand who He was. Today, in hindsight, through the lense of this song, I can see that the Holy Spirit had always been there, pursuing me and continues to track my every move today. 

It was sunrise, in September, 1993 when I wrote City Lights. I was as bald as a cue ball from chemotherapy treatments, the cancer was gone, and excitement filled my soul because I was finally getting out of that hospital for good. I remember waking up arguing with a voice in my head that whispered, “go get your guitar” (several times). Finally, because the voice wouldn't stop, I tippy toed across the cold hospital floor and grabbed my guitar. 

The city lights were so pretty up against the sunrise; that's what I was thinking when the song spilled out from deep within me.

Isn't it so cool that thirty years later God would minister to me with this little song? Maybe someone else is also being ministered to while reading this story or listening to the tune … my hope.

Like it or not, God gave us the capacity to feel. He did not give us our emotions to stuff, disregard or manipulate. Our feelings are to feel and what a blessing they are, even in a place of grief there is a sense that the Lord has my back, and I am ok; it is bitter and sweet for sure. 

What life brings us will mold us, the people we meet and connect with will teach us, as long as we can listen. And most important of all the Lord will pursue us; we will turn towards Him, or we won't, our choice.   

So, remember …  “Everything is easy if that's the way you want it, and things can be really hard too. Whatever you are feeling, you take it, and you feel it, 'cause the feeling will be over real soon. Making room for more feelings.”  

Love ya, L